A Letter to My Unborn Son

Dear Baby Boy,

I am writing you this letter from the hospital. I have been here since May 17, 2011...the scariest day of my life...I thought you were being taken away from me.

Until the first time I heard your heartbeat, I never thought it was possible to love another human being whom I have never met before. But I have learned that it is so possible because I am so in love with you! This journey to motherhood has been so difficult for me and it has only been 24 weeks. But the day I get to hold you in my arms, I will look back and see that this was all worth it. Yes, Mommy has shed several tears, and I hope this did not affect you in any negative way. I promise to be strong for you and place all of my worries and fears into Gods hands while I continue to take care of my body and remain healthy for you. I pray every single day for you...I pray for my health for you...I pray for God to please keep you in there for many more weeks!

Sometimes I feel like a failure because I have an incompetent cervix that just does not want to hold you for too long. Every time something happens, I break down and cry and feel like giving up. But its like, your kicks and strong heartbeat lift me back up and tell me "Mommy, I'm okay in here...please dont cry. Everything will be okay."

I love you so much it's just hard to think that every day there is a possibilty of me losing you. So I am making a promise to you that I will just continue to pray, stick to bed rest, and do everything I can do to keep you in there until September. I am claiming it in the name of Jesus, that you will be my little miracle!

Love,
Mommy